I want nothing for Christmas this year…
As I look around my home tonight I cannot think of anything that I want for, only one thing I pray for…
A child.
Perhaps 2005 will be better for Lisa and me. You see we have been doing Invetro fertilization for the past 18 months. I know others on the board have done the same and my prayers go out to them, especially on this night, one of family gatherings and joy.
There is a void in my life one that I cannot explain. I am 35 years old, a widower (two years ago, and I have remarried) and childless. I am married to a wonderful woman that after my tragedy saw the inner “me†and believes in him. I thank God for her every day.
Although I have many material “things†Cobra, Datsun Z car, tools, nice garage, I’d trade them all in a heartbeat to have my own family. Lisa and I are here alone this evening sharing one another’s company. Right now she is making chocolate covered strawberries for the neighbors and I’m just kind of writing this note bathing in my own self pity.
I still have hope, as does she, that one day soon we will be able to celebrate the holidays with our own children. We are going to do another round of Invetro and look further into adoption at the first of the year.
Sorry if this brought anybody down, I guess it’s just the season.
David