I cant say my current situation was planned. SHe is so perfect for me and the love is there, and everything is so great! I have no regrets about our relationship as is now and i am sooo looking foward to spending the rest of my days with her, and the boy.
That first one i mentioned i admit was a stupid mistake. Yep i was young and i wanted to "bang bang bang", just got a tad careless doing it. Yeah i got hell from everybody for being irresponsible. My fault. Im glad we arent together anymore because i would not have met my fiancee. Now i have a house, 3 z's (lol), her, and my son coming. The reason we are not married yet is because we want to have her family here and my family. My brother is in the Army and will not be home until Christmas 2003. Her family lives in Long Island, NY and they are going to come out for the wedding. My mother lives in Colorado, so she is bring the family out too. We want to get married now, but we want to involve the entire family, so we will wait. I feel it is worth the wait.
Im feeling pretty good today. As i get older, i realize that there are things that would pop into your mind that make you wonder what would have been. I have been with a few girls before that one, but she was the first one i took the step with and made it real.
My fiancee and i are prepared to spend our days together. For me to wonder about the past is not a sign that i am doubting my current situation. Its just the human mind doin' its thing. Im happy and successful right where im at. Thanks for the words guys!