On3go,
I cant believe you posted stuff about something this personal. This really must be bugging you pretty bad. Been there, I know how it is. I had my heart broken really bad when I was younger, so bad that I once thought I could never fall in love again. I realized that I was wrong, but from that experience I know that love takes time, and I will never tell anyone that I love them if I really do not. Sounds like you need to go out and meet some girls homie. Sounds like youre a sensitive caring person and you have cool cars, those two together mixed with some game can take you places. I meet a lot of girls, and I dont say this because I think I am a pimp or some kind of hustler, Im just really really Freakin Ambitious, and my ambition is really starting to take me places. My favorite motto is
"Im not a pimp, Im a positive thinker." Buck up youngster, grab some ambition and fly with it. I found my calling in life and its made me a stronger and better person, there is no reason why you cannot do the same thing. IF she really is the special love of your life, work with it, but also keep your options open, youre a young man and life is ahead of you, life is a battle but you dont have to fight fair, but go in with your fists up and let em fly buddy.